Writing on Pluto
The Poetic Life
The Joys of Living a Poetic Life
18.3.13
A Very Local Presence with Vancouver Opera's "The Magic Flute"
19.8.12
A Little Bit of Publishing
25.3.12
I Am Your Ocean...
even your healers are poisoning me.
I relax you when you are nearly
too tired to reach me. You
don't have to work:
I take care of everything.
I balance your vision
for you can see far
across my vast expanses,
and fantastic creatures may
wash up on my shores.
Subtly, everything about me changes
every moment, every day, every year,
gently, without burnout.
I polish glass for your pleasure.
You don't have to do anything,
but pick it up.
Your muscles strengthen
by working with my sand
hard work, without punishment.
Spend time with me, and
I will give you perspective.
Yoga Practice and Depression
Related to depression, however, it certainly is, and the problem is that when in the depressive state, one forgets the happy state to the point that, without a taste of it, one has no appetite to direct one to the needful thing. Translation: when I feel depressive, I don't feel any desire for the practice that will make me happy because I have no feeling memory of it. I am fortunate to have found that for me, yoga absolutely heals my depression, but once back inside it the way out cannot be felt. Therefore, I recognized that it is vital to create a bridge from depression's somber tones, to yoga's happy ones. Anything that can tempt me is a cue: a dedicated space, clothes I like, music, lotion, aromatherapy, and today some Read My Lips black tea with pink peppercorns, chocolate, peppermint, and little candy lips. I promise myself this new delight in order to get myself feeling like being on the mat. I will not listen to my mind. I am too much of a rebel.
Action Step: Think about what kinds of cues you can provide for yourself to get yourself feeling like doing the thing you need to do.
Intuition is a Life Skill
24.3.12
Spring at the West Side Beaches
It's spring, and the ocean is glowing cold, as the now brighter, hotter rays of the sun beat down on it. Eagles are a common sight, and strange, alien looking cartilaginous skeletons occasionally wash up from some distant, deep sector of the sea. The herring gulls seem larger every year, and seals troll just beyond the end of fishermen's lines on the large pier for easy second hand catches!
16.3.12
Squirrel Problems...
They're filling it up from the bottom to top; they're making it smelly; they're making it quite: nasty, and itchy, and hairy, and brown; they'll get me evicted; I'll have to leave town...
16.2.12
The Strange Thing About Death...
at death.
7.2.12
My Dishcloth Needs a Funeral and Other Stories...
Antique Cloth |
Gorgeous New Cloths |
26.1.12
Monkey Wallet and Second Breakfast
For $2.10 I made Monkey Appetite happy and saved Monkey Wallet . |
23.1.12
Ben and Jerry
5.12.11
Fall Leaves
13.9.11
12.9.11
Tulip
9.9.11
7.9.11
Suspect Trying to Ingratiate Himself with Noise Police
5.9.11
Artistic Economy in Vancouver
26.8.11
Crows and Sparrows
the kitchen breezes,
crows and sparrows,
cool, gold-green jungle;
dishes pile up.
Young women whoop;
drying plastic bags shift
over the sink. Crows caw.
Blackberries fall off
vines, overripe.
Sparrows rub their
vocal cords together
to produce autumn
sounds. Green tea
at the kitchen table
for murmuring
reflections.
16.8.11
Return of the Buffalo. Please Vote.
31.7.11
29.7.11
Summer, 2011 So Far...
this day that's trapped inside a static mote of sand dust.
Love
28.7.11
It Is All Very Well...
to see, to think, to live on the brink.
It is all very well, the same old story, hard and gory.
It is always the same old story. The days
grow more beautiful now. The days grow more beautiful.
Sometime, they may not be, maybe tomorrow,
or in a thousand years. For now they are lovely.
What loveliness! And I do wonder at those
who show no interest in these beauties.
25.7.11
Do you ever like to be alone
24.7.11
Poinsettia
14.7.11
How to Turn Insomnia into a Personal Deliciousness
11.7.11
Coco and Olive, My Favourite Cafe
4.7.11
Yellow Birds, a Kingfisher, and Hummingbirds
Blackberry Bushes in Bloom Near English Bay |
10.5.11
On Waking at Night...
It's not a nightmare,
it's just night, in the milky way galaxy
turned away from the glare of the sun
with a back alley view on
innumerable stars.
24.4.11
17.4.11
Sunday Morning
i.
Seed pipe cleaner strands of birch flower,
pipe cleaners hanging down
and the sweet, grape-bunch seed of flower on the maple.
How do the leaves bud red, salmon red, pale meat red,
with the green-yellow flower clusters?
It seems to me they must arise separately.
Then I see the red part is the burst calyx
like broken shrimp shell shedding roe, and
similar enough in texture, that great mass of
incipient pollen and seed shower.
ii.
Some curly-tailed, black dog trots
like a pet pig, across mid-ocean
intrepid in its locomotion.
10.4.11
The Cheese-Making Dragon in the Rocky Mountains
The dragon has very large fingers and nails, and can't milk the goats and sheep, so in the night, when people dream, it gets industrial engineers and milking machine mechanics to design and install a gigantic facility with a generator it can peddle with one claw. The engineers and mechanics get tired from overwork at that time.
And so, the dragon is set. it can gather the milk, once lambing and kidding is successfully completed and can hang large bags of milk in another deep cavern in the mountainside, letting the whey drip away until it has cheese for its delectation. The whey it smartly collects and pours onto the foliage that the goats and sheep like to eat to keep it strong and the animals fed so they continue to produce fine milk.
4.4.11
How to Love Your Red-Fringed Dress (in Fifty-Seven Words or Less)
Do not ask.
I've never had a red-fringed dress,
wasn't allowed the fringe much less
the fabric, but still I'll have a try
if you will attend while I imagine
a shawl with wheat colored tassels
and overblown salmon roses,
printed sage rose leaves,
triangular, on some artificial silk
hanging on the crooks of my elbows, just so,
so I can be a lady.
Don't you know that's out of date?
We're all so tough these days,
but wait,
I already donned a bonnet
with more, real roses on it,
and if you don't stop me, by god,
I'm almost going to pen a sonnet.
I just don't know what we can do
without some fine, flat, rounded shoe
to take us lightly to our host,'
tripping gaily as a ghost,
and I can't wonder what is said
when at nine or ten o'clock,
I excuse myself and go to bed.
29.3.11
20.3.11
Gnome Flu II
beat by a succession of wild waves,
between which wait quiet troughs--
dance to their enormous joy
on every worn part, every oar,
wrack day by day, interminably,
this rolling craft; it tries their skill,
but each of them, dauntless,
dances still, and the roiling maw
of the ocean's jaw, pitiless, friendless,
rage it will.
12.3.11
The Brainless and the Clever Dogs
9.3.11
20.2.11
15.2.11
My Ghost, My Love: A War-Love-Ghost Story
14.2.11
Poetry Magazine Publishes, Enlightens, and Educates
Poetry Magazine publishes some of the most interesting, successful poetry around. Listen to their podcasts, and you will hear the editors brilliantly discussing poems on their site in detail. They are really engaging.
13.2.11
How You Feel
Went to church this A.M. because it's at least a spiritual outlet. Aside from some monotonous hymns...to be expected...I found First Baptist on Burrard to be renewed by cogent spiritual activism. They were great! Really!
They were helpful, but I still feel I have very little purpose. I don't feel called. There's no other activity that is easy for me to do, besides writing. Everything else takes me forever, and is really hard. It's like I don't know any other language of work beside the English language, and have as much aptitude for learning as those folks who take ten years to learn languages and are still largely incomprehensible cause it's not in their brain/nature/anything at all. But I forced myself, and so...I can teach to a certain extent.
Well, I like to drink tea. What to write? Lately I had nothing left to write. Must be the dark night of the writer's soul. Winter.
28.11.10
Late November
On a day like this, when the bed is heaped with coats and blankets, scarves and mittens, and I am thickly layered with fleece and wool and silk and the air is alive but still
the littlest birds coast on the least power wings can relinquish, headlong, arcing, everything but falling out of the air
We are all the color of sand and sawdust. Christmas shoppers don their identities, and chickadees fluff up like the ruffs on wool winter coats, and there is nothing like Starbucks for a little comfort, for well prepared housekeeping of the steaming cup, for what one could well do for oneself at home, but hasn't necessarily the private momentum for.
16.8.10
The Thing the World Wants Is Wrong
box with mufti quilts at the windows
against the street light, this sturdy stand
against the nightwith mosqito netting and
the fan whirling atop the armoire, the darkness
behind the desk,on a street, in a city,
that doesn't feel like home, the August sun glaring
and the air too still, longing for a gentler life
than the one on which I reflect.
In an attractive space,
I can't seem to roll up like a snail like
I used to dofitting myself into my shell.
And the fact is snails belong in their shells.
It's not a slug.
Having acquainted myself with the world,
it has become harder to escape,
has invaded and set like concrete,
too bold, too plain, too solid, too simple;
bring me diaphanous, delicate, lavender, mauve
too strong after all;
the thing the world wants is wrong.
2.8.10
I Don't Get Fat
not a bit.
I look fit.
I don't get fat.
I don't get anything
that doesn't look good.
Not at all,
and I'm ten feet tall.
11.7.10
Worm and Crow
and a crow is croaking out
a little sandpaper scratch into
the fluid mist of my day,
a little fingernail attention
from a more alert dimension,
whatever it is she's trying to say...
10.7.10
I Am...
that there is some other slice of reality
that would suit me entirely well,
and this
isn't
it.
12.6.10
Fair Trade Chocolate
29.5.10
25.4.10
From "Beatrice and Virgil" by Yann Martel
Beatrice: Again? You'll sprain your face.
Virgil: I mean a verbal expression.
11.4.10
The Sloth and the Moth
a whirling and twirling tornado of slothdom that works like a dervish to get that moth off 'um.
22.3.10
The Saving Madness of Burton/Depp's "Alice in Wonderland"
I heard that Johnny Depp resonated with the character of the Mad Hatter. I know he had a tumultuous life until he met his wife, who finally was the person who understood him. I think I relate to Johnny Depp in some ways as an artist. He said this was his ideal role, and it's my ideal role as well in another way. When I saw the hatter's table, that crazy rabbit (love that rabbit so much) and all their irrational behavior, I started to cry. I could have missed half the scene. I miss that madness in myself. I used to go crazy, and it was wonderful. Now there's not a bit of madness anywhere in sight. I think I was happier when I was living a little more in a dream world. That's nonsense, of course, but it was much more real to me, and very lovely, and reality is not wonderful without it.
My reality is in better shape than it used to be, but my dream life seems to have suffered in the bargain. Ironic, eh?
Anyway, the movie did provide me some renewal. I came out and the world looked different to me (partly because they've renewed Cambie area, which helped, but it wasn't just that).
The movie showed me that there are dreamers in the world exactly like me, that they are strong and valid and functional, and that there is a place in the sane mind and body for the dreaming madness.
Tea Cup Clouds
16.3.10
Magnolia Magnaflora!
24.1.10
Poem: To Cherish January
in the seasons' pause and stillness.
Silently cheer the heart of January,
myriad stars in the chill night sky.
A thousand stars in the resting body
bestow its dreams on you and I.
18.1.10
Rant:Transformation
15.11.09
There Is No Way of Posting About Anything but...
9.11.09
Home: Sewing in the Kitchen
2.11.09
Chakra Theory and Psyche: The Voyage into the Seventh Chakra and Staying Anchored to the Earth
26.10.09
Visions: Woman in Magnificent Costume
17.10.09
Landscapes of Joy
9.10.09
Prizes for Identifying Literary References :)
Relationship Chaos
25.9.09
Rita Wong at Irving Barber
18.9.09
17.9.09
Who Cares Nothing for the Opinions of Others?
Stimulate, trigger action, trigger desire and the whole machine, the ferris wheel, the roller coaster, the mechanics of the great steam engine start up again, round and round, on the same cog, massive, heavy, and exhaustive. Trigger this engine into action. Finally, I have heard the engine's labor long enough. The great labor is not worth the result, and no one's opinion is of interest. Without worry over the opinion of others there is little that needs to be done, little to do. Except for love, or perhaps the great endeavor, the life's work is isolated into a matter of the mind, and at last the body is not required to perform the magnanimous task of expressing it.
10.9.09
Robson Reading Series: Poets Marguerite Pigeon and David Zieroth
Life Forms That Possess an Extra Dose of Vitality
(In astrology, it's Jupiter that lends extra vitality to an organism.)
The dahlias are budding again, and again, and blooming. It is September 10th. The azaleas, too, are budding again, but not with enough vitality to open out into flowers. One azalea bud broke thick scarlet from its casing but atrophied there like a tiny, hopeless, crumpled fist and gathered dots of pollen-colored mold.
I had an ultra strong, red primula plant that flowered for nearly four months this year in my window box. In other years the primulas have been plants that lasted a week or two indoors, or spanned a couple of months, perhaps, in people's gardens, but this plant had the staying power of a lobster that, after it's claw is ripped away by accident or predation, goes ahead and grows a new one. After the plant finally disappeared into itself for two weeks without signs of life, it began to sprout several perky new leaves and seemed to be intending to start blooming all over again. Though it hasn't bloomed again, I've now planted it in the garden along with all its little seed bells. It's doing well down there. We'll see what comes up next spring!
Some women want to have babies when they are in their early forties. It's absolutely natural for some women to feel this impulse. Who knows that they do not posses an extra dose of vitality themselves, whether capable of entirely blooming or not, and in Vancouver, I've seen roses bloom until December, so who's to say what life will do, or be able to do. We can talk about it being right or wrong, but really, all we can do is watch and see what happens. Certainly I could stand around insulting my dahlias and depress them into not producing gorgeous blooms in September, but what for?